Siren, explosion, reality........... Written: Thursday, Mar. 12, 2009 - 6:14 p.m. Eating/Drinking: Watching: Hearing: Well, I feel somewhat... angry, depressed, disappointed, desperate... you name it. Angry at my group for actually kicking me out today, because, according to them I don't attend classes frequently enough and my work isn't good enough. Screw that, this is an obligatory minor, my work isn't going to be beyond average. Deal with it. As for my attending classes that's my business, not theirs. I do the work, and I do it according to the teacher's examples and it's still not right, I've never had a group just constantly harass me with it like this. And not even on time, only after I handed it in and corrected it 8293829382 times. And I actually told the 2 guys I'm in the group with I couldn't make it to the meeting yesterday, because I had plans with Ella (it should be okay if I cancel them in advance right?) But then afterwards Ruud (the bitch, the other hasn't spoken to me at all about this, but apparently is being spoken for) asks me where the heck I was over MSN, and I'm like 'dude... I told you in advance I couldn't make it =/' I just feel bullied some how, because they never ever talk to me (nor listen, apparently) in classes or meetings, and afterwards I get all sorts of angry e-mails from the leader and it's just come as a total shock... Urgh. I told them to basically have fun with the quarter and I hope I get a pass. I just filed for a pass on 4 quarters today (I've got over 100 credits from my previous 2 courses... that's over 1 years worth) and one of the quarters I can get a pass on would be this one... I really really hope I can get that, then I'll be saved for now... I'll attempt to salvage the previous quarter too, at which I failed so hard. And then if I can't salvage it at once, I'll have to pass the final quarter this year all at once, without resits. No, I do not wish to talk to the teacher either, I just can't face any of my problems can I? I prefer to just run away, because last time I tried communicating with a teacher she totally rejected me and made me feel accused and attacked. (Canadian Bitch) I realise I do need to work on my attendance, but I just feel so damn depressed half the time, I don't know what to do with my life or where it's going. I just lack discipline and motivation for any of this. I am secretly working on small internet business ideas for myself though in case anything really does go wrong again... who knows, maybe I can even use my photography for something useful. So here is some photospam Nudie Onyxes <3 I am so very Soomed, I just love Soom dolls and I want more xO; Solar Pullip~ I adore her Pinku~~~ yeaah! http://i29.photobucket.com/albums/c259/solarciel/pinkuness.jpg make up like my city of heroes Pinku xP And finally, Mush Mush, ye little cheeky kitten. Oh and last saturday I went to a doll convention with Leea and got a few plant miniatures and a golden mirror, and a tiny guinea pig! All for my Pullips =3 I didn't spend much because I didn't have much money, but I'm still absolutely broke now (about 5 euros and that's it) Anyway, write laters. Mood: First entry ~~ Previous ~~ Next ~~ Latest Entry