I must not be meant for love Written: Friday, Nov. 21, 2008 - 10:54 p.m. Eating/Drinking: Watching: Hearing: I am just sad and depressed right now, and crying. Damie got on and his diary went on about losing faith in me and then he went on about me breaking promises and never been on whenever he goes to the internet cafe and supposedly 'waits' around for me. Sorry I never ASKED you to actually wait around for me, yet you always seem to do just that, so sorry I am actually playing city of villains to distract myself from my loneliness, and sorry for not waiting around for you, I never promised that either did I? I have college and hobbies too you know? My credit card.. well I don't have it. I don't have it for my dolls or any thing. I will find it, IF you even want to visit me, which I am doubting, since all you can do is rant about how >>I<< don't talk to you enough and how I am busy doing some thing else when you get on. I did BRB to talk to you, sorry if I took about 5 minutes to actually make a sandwich and another 5 minutes later on to actually eat it out of the precious 'damie' time, I realise that at the point I notice you're on, I should just drop everything I do, and just sit here and talk to you, even if you complain I am not interesting, and say the same things over well... saying 'I miss you' and 'I love you' many times doesn't seem like a bad thing to me. To be honest. I am sorry for being a shitty girl friend. I am sorry for being a shitty person. I am sorry about everything. It looks like I don't deserve this thing called 'love' after all. However my love for Damien will always remain in my heart, forever, and no one else. Mood: First entry ~~ Previous ~~ Next ~~ Latest Entry